day eleven

I just woke up startled from a dream. I can't remember what startled me but I can remember what I was dreaming about earlier in the night. I was dreaming of him. You know, the kind of dream where it feels so real that you're disconnected from reality for a moment. That's the kind of dream I had.
When I woke up, I preferred the dream. Reality's bed is too big.

day three

I just had my first online iChat with Julien a few minutes ago. It was 12pm here and 9pm over there. It seems bizarre that he's getting ready to sleep and my day is only half over. It really seems to heighten the differences in lives we're having right now. It was so good to see him and talk to him. I was worried it would be awkward, or even painful, to talk over the computer without being able to physically be together ... but surprisingly it was really nice.
I'm hoping this separation will add an extra depth to our relationship that we haven't had before ... it almost feels like we're just starting to date and we're flirting via email and online chatting. Neither of us wanted to be the first to hang up/disconnect/say goodbye. I ended up being the first because I knew he wouldn't ... plus he had some pasta waiting for him and I didn't want it to get cold.
I miss him already. Sigh ... only five months and 29 days to go.

love in miles,
Beth